hey!

at school i smiled at you but you didn’t smile back. if you hear closely, my heart was shattered back then.

at school i tried to smile to you again but then my i was nervous and looked away.

at school i think about you and i didn’t realize the class is already over.

at basketball practice i stared at you for a long time but you don’t know that, do you?

at basketball practice i stared at you until i didn’t realize there were people other than me and you.

at home i looked at our previous conversations on skype. i smiled, laughed, but then when i remember what has happened now, tears will always fall to my cheeks.

at home i regreted deleting all of the sms you sent me just because there was a junior borrowed my handphone.

then when i looked at the other guys i felt guilty because i feel like i’m betraying you because of being unfaithful to you.

and now, when i look at you again, it’ll only bring sadness thinking how happy we were at the past.

you know what? it only took less than a week to hate you.

i don’t know if you’re just playing revenge on me or just being an ignorant jerk.

if i do have done mistakes that hurted you, i’m sorry. i really am.

like i said, even if i’m excited seeing some guy that i like it doesn’t mean i don’t like you anymore.

i chose you, don’t you remember?

i chose you because you’re the best compared to other guys.

hope you’ll read this. (amen)

*from my tumblr*